He Loves Me

He is always waiting to hear from me
He is always jealous for me when I have no time for Him
He is always protecting me no matter what decisions I made
He is always so gentle to me when I confide in Him
He is always reassuring to me when I have doubts on Him
He is always there for me regardless of how I neglected Him
He is always my best friend even when I am not a friend to Him
He is always wanting the best for me though I am blinded at times
He is always the joy in my life when I am sad
He is always so fatherly to me when I am lacked
He is always my provider when I am in need
He is always showing me unconditional loves
He is always being kind to me when I am ugly
He is always caring towards my emotional needs
He is always concerned about my well being in life

He loves me oh how he loves me!
Truly you are the best thing that has happen to me Jesus Christ!

It is your loves that leads me on and brings me to where I am today
It is your grace that never leaves me when I have given up
It is your hands that rescues me in time when I am drowning
It is your mercy that fills me when I am treated unfairly
It is you that matters in my life!

If I could do just one thing today I would want to be in your House!
If I could choose between a life of popularity without you & a low profile life with you I would choose the latter
If I could turn back the clock I would to make amends of the time I didn't spend enough with you
If I could love someone who doesn't loves you by your will I would otherwise you reign
If I could honor other gods besides you and make them my idol I wouldn't Jesus Christ!

I would rather be neglected by the world than you, father!
I would rather be known as a Christian fanatic than someone who is of disrespect to You!
I would rather love my enemies than being disobedient to you!
I would rather be in the right place at your right timing than to dishonor you!
I would rather live a life with You as the center than a sidetrack life!

I love you oh How I love you too Father! <3
I am really the apple of your eyes!

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

She is a Woman!

She is a Woman

Woman is made great in gentleness
Woman is tender and soft in her acts
Woman speaks with deep sincerities
Woman expresses herself in kind ways

Woman assures everything is alright when it is not
Woman stands for her poise though there is doubt
Woman loves passionately like there is no end to it
Woman comforts even when a situation turns worst

Woman always stood for her precious
Woman always choose to be generous
Woman never point fingers at her betrayer
Woman never says no to a pleading stranger

She is a woman who remains anonymous
She is a woman who is indeed magnanimous!

Lots of love @ Jeline Loh

A Brand New Year

A Brand New Year

A brand new year to be review
The past is no longer the present
The old seems to be anew
It is as though life has been reset

The broken has been made whole
The poor has decided to be rich
The lost is guided by a hope
The singles are ready to be hitch

New Year resolutions are reserved
The best is truly what we deserved
With all our might we will preserved
What is worthy for us to conserved

As we look to a brand new year of precision
As we look to a brand new year of distinction

Copyrighted @Jeline Loh

Windows of Colors

Windows of Colors

When I was younger

Life was much simpler

My favorite color was red

Now when I am older

I know it sure is a pink

Nonetheless I still love varieties

Bright beautiful ranges of colors

Brings me into a lightness

A sense of happiness

As it suits different moods

Seven days in a week

Seven colors in a rainbow

Red, Orange, Blue, Indigo

Green, Violet & Yellow

Let us peek thru our window

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Complexity

Complexity

We are taught to live our live to the fullest

Shouldn’t we be living it passionately?

Even if the matters are not of our interest

But the substance moves me personally!

Is it really apathy to some?

Will this comes to an end?

Does it really concerned me?

I am really confused!

Hence the dust fills the earth

Till the rust catalyze our lungs

Trying is the time to rebirth

Perhaps to where it belongs

A mere humanity to be ill

A mere decision to be still

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

The Valley of the Alley

The Valley of the Alley

As I walked through the valley

The valley of life or the other

Dark and winded is the other alley

I couldn’t foretell if I even bother

The journey is such a pang

I doubt there is enjoyment

The process is far too long

If it will only bring torment

For some it is to endure

For others it is to fulfill

For me I am rather aware

That I would rather enthrall

In either alley let us wish
In either valley let us triumph

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Faith

Faith

I used to have so much faith
I thought that I am strong
Not when it is affecting my health
Now I know I might be wrong

The feeling of unpredictable pain
Is indescribable at times
Yet I have to endure again
Faith, solitary source that activates

There is always hope for cure
Though you might be blinded
By the reasons of your care
It is better to be anticipated

Someday I know I will be well
Someday I know time will tell

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Prayerful Sunday

Hola Beautiful Sunday
To rest in the Lord
It is you that I lived for everyday
What a special day it is

Calm and peaceful I am
Bring me into your serenity
As I adore you daily
Truly you are pleased with me

It is indeed another day of victory
Knowing you are on my side
Brings a sense of security
All things are possible with you

A day with the Lord
Is a thousand days of joy
As I commit the week to God
It is indeed a time to pray!

Fated

Fated

It’s been a long time

Ages since I knew you

Somehow a stranger to me

It felt like I have known you

Although I really don’t

Ardent am I to find out more

Time will tell yet it won’t

Curiosity is still a core

Yet now we spoke again

Someday our path will cross

With a crystal glass of champagne

Somehow we can have a toss

If fate is something we hold

We shouldn’t let it go

That is what we were told

It wouldn’t be long ago

Simply Surreal

Simply Surreal

Strolling along the beachside

With the sands beneath my wet feet

Gives me a tingling sensation

That life is simply surreal

Hearing the sound of the whooshing waves

Overlooking a blue horizon of skies

Watching the sun sets beneath the mountains

Simply reminds me of the majestic creator

How everything falls in its own place

How nature takes its own course

How the birds in the skies seems to be free

Without cares with no restrictions

Without worries with no confrontations

Without fears with no boundaries

This is what life ought to be

Simply surreal

Written on 22nd December 2011

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

A Cup of Coffee

A Cup of Coffee

Smelling the fresh aroma

Of the Roast Premier Whole Bean Coffee

MmMmm how alluring it seems

As I sip the coffee bit by bit

It seems like I am transcended

To another world

A world full of fantasy

A world of no boundaries

I began to conceived

HeHeh All the money I would be making

Thru the hobbies I love doing

Living the lives of dreams

As the best has arrived

It is now, it is now!

I am truly living it

WeEee how wonderful

Smiling to myself

Simply enjoying every moment

Laughing to myself

Living life to the fullest

Suddenly my phone rang

AhHhh I am back to reality?!

Indeed,

It’s all in a cup of coffee!

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Future to Secure

Future to Secure

Life seems perfectly fine

Everything I needed

Everything I wanted

Yet restlessness settles within me

Wonder why, wonder how

Waiting anxiously for after that

Something might just be missing

Have yet to figure out now

Perhaps a glimpse of the future

An ordinary of actuality to abjure

A new revelation would ensure

Only signs & wonders could secure

Written on 29th December 2011

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

They say? We think!

They Say? We Think!

They say a family is united

Where is the unity if their hearts are not bond?

They say friends are forever

Where is the forever if it is now a never?

They say arguments aren’t meant to be resolved

How could we ever think of what is ahead?

They say true love will find you in time

How long do we need to stay the same?

They say living itself is a battle

When will it be amiable?

They say we should look beyond our circumstances

When will we deny our conveniences?

They say never give up

Why do we have hiccup? 

They say always be firm

Why do we even conform?

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Is Silence a Good Noise

Is Silence a Good Noise

Silence is Golden

Be silent when you can

If you know nothing best to be silent

If you know something be humble

At the end of day it is silence that matters

Feeling tired and lethargy

A calm surrounding helps

Rather than busy noises

I could use a silence or two

To rejuvenate my soul

In the still of night silence brings peace

To remain in the quietness

Seems like a pleasant noise

Hush my soul

Sshhhhhh

Christmas

Christmas

Christmas oh Christmas,

Singing Hark the herald angels sing,

With all the jingle bells,

Dazzling decorations filled the surrounding,

Oh what such joy it is,

A new born savior our Christ,

There lay the meaning of Christmas,

As long as Christ in our heart,

Privilege to have our glorious King,

Merry celebrations everywhere,

Time to be a blessing,

Such occasion to be childlike

Written on Dec 11, 2008

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Life as I Discover is Too Fragile

Life as I Discover is Too Fragile

Life as I discover is too fragile

People come and go easily

What's the meaning of living if you don’t really lived

One minute u were with that someone

And the next second they are gone

Life is too meaningless

I'm sitting here in front of my computer screen

Feeling the emptiness of this world

What is there in life I wonder?

There is no meaning to it

I wonder why is life like a circle of repetition

Babies came into the world being fed and taken care of

After a while they are teenagers and goes to school, college and university

Started working after a matter of time to earn a living in this unstable world

Found a partner get married deliver a baby and

Life goes on and on without meaning

As people ages they are buried in the graveyard and where do they go?

It’s only either heaven if they accept Christ or hell if they don't

This goes on and on till the next generation

As I watch everyone and the same usual of unusual that has yet to take place

I really wonder why are we all doing the same thing in life

I sense there is more to life than just living in it

But I really need to satisfy my longing for nothing soul

I wonder how can people get satisfy and contented easily

It's not easy for me though I need to find the true meaning of it

Either the meaning of existence or

Merely the existence of the surrounding

I can only be satisfied then

And for now the searching will remain constant

Constant enough to feel the meaning of it!

Written on Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

My Feelings For Now (November 2005)

My Feelings for Now

Right now I am totally lost

I really wonder who I am

What am I really doing here?

What am I supposed to do?

What am I good at?

I am feeling down for sure

I have no one to look to

Or anyone that can share my problems

My only way to burst out

Is to write my heart out

Is there anyone?

That is willing to share my problem

Willing to take away my cares

To serenade and comfort me

I am totally lost!

November 2005

Ramblings

Ramblings

Wooo U know what I want

U know what I meant

Don't try to act as though U dunno

Don't let me be like a radio

I only want what I want

Not what I don’t want

Can't u understand me?

Can't u just agree?

I ain't going in rhymes

It's just plain obvious

Since u are God

Please don’t be bad!

Written on Dec 1, 2009

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

True Love, Where Can I Find True Love?

True Love, Where Can I Find True Love?

Dear true love, where do I look for you?

I know that it is not searchable because

It will come to you when the time is right

But when is the right time?

I know 19 is too young

According to most people

But I’ve waited for far too long

I've abstained from getting into a relationship

When all my friends jump from a relationship to another

I've never had one relationship before!

Yet i believe that my first one will be the one

The one that will last throughout eternity

I do believe in purity and innocence

I do want to have a good bf that is the right person from God

I want a pure relationship

I don't want to be like youth these days nor like my friends

I don't want to give myself to the one that is not right for me

I intend to give my virginity only on my wedding day to the right person!

Where do i look for this right person?

I'm not like others

I'm rather conservative and reserved although

I might look like an outgoing kind of chic!

So i would need a guy that would understand me!

Written on Saturday, November 26, 2005

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

You're All I Adore

You’re All I Adore

God in this darkest hour of night

I have been thinking about you

Your loves over pouring into the deepest of my soul

Healing my every brokenness in every parts of me

Every scars being lifted up

My heart being renewed & whole once again

God you're an amazing father

How can I compare you with anyone?

Truly your love has filled my heart and it is your love that conquers all my fears and my darkness

Your loves so strong like a tower of refuge and strength for me

I lean on you forevermore

Ps: I love you my dearest Father!

A song i will sing for you always

In the morning, you will hear my voice

Direct my paths daily as I put you first

Bring me joy and overflow me with your love

How sweet is the sound of your whisperst

The stillness of night is where i could hear you

Your voice is so sweet and loving

How could I ever be away from your presence?

Recharge me whenever I am tired

Take away my heavy burden

I lay it down before you

Pick it up like how you carry this world in your hands!

I love you so much Father, How beautiful! How wonderful! How glorious!

I see your tender, loving face!

You're all I adore!

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Jeline is in such a depression state with such a depression statement on a depression month! ! !(Yr 2008)

Jeline is in such a depression state with such a depression statement on a depression month! ! !

I was sooo depressed till i came out with this poem in the office..sighh..here it goes..

It's a cold boring day,

Or rather a dull day,

Facing the screen is all i do,

Waiting for 6pm to go,

Wondering what to do next,

I think I'll probably text! ! !

Written on Dec 8, 2008

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

A Hectic Day

A Hectic Day

Work is inevitable

Work is accumulative

Work is strenuous

Work is living

A good work represents a good life

A well lived life is a balance

A balance between work & play

Is a life worth living!

Thus it begins my enthusiasm

For compilation of workloads

To be effective & efficient

To complete it I shall stop

Writing this poem!

The Blame Game

The Blame Game

Put it on me

You said you have it

You can handle it

You will do it

Put it on you

I asked for it

I want it

I need it

Put it on me

You asked me not to worry

You will not hurry

You call it a dreary

Put it on you

I said I am afraid

I am confounded

I am devastated

Put it on me

You lost it now

You wonder how

You will never vow

Put it on ME

I just gulp

I need help

I am scratching my scalp!

Written on 3rd Jan 2012

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

It Never Ends

It Never Ends

Waking up daily is like a battlefield

It never ends it always hurts

Thinking of what lies ahead seems bleak

It never ends it always lurches

Getting ready for a new day

It never ends it always echoes

Pulling myself together to face it

It never ends it always twists

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

It Seems You Didn't Want Me

It Seems You didn’t Want Me

I have waited for you

I have considered you

I have hoped in you

Somehow it seems

You never wanted me

Or perhaps lesser than

Than what I thought

Difficult it seems

When you have yet

To pick the courage

To express in a deeper way

That you want me

More than the distance that matters

That you would risk being a fool again

From your past long distance relationships

If all that matters is me

Written on 11 November 2011

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Tiny Lttle Creature

Tiny Lil Creature

As I look at him

He looks clueless

Always wandering around

Searching for bits of sunflower seeds

To nibble to chew on

As he bit on it he looks satisfied

As though life is all that

He spends all day sleeping

And running all night long

I wonder what is going thru

His petite little mind

Tiny little creature of mine he is

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

A New Beginning of a Deeper Friendship (Going on to Perfection)

A New Beginning of a Deeper Friendship (Going on to Perfection)

I remembered we were hanging out

A week before Christmas

You confessed that

All you want for Christmas

Is me

I was happy to know that

Then I playfully dared you

If you were to express it publicly

On your Facebook

I will consider you

Who knows after a great eventful Christmas

You asked me

Again for the third time in a year

To be your girlfriend

I was blushing on the outside

While having butterflies on the inside

I teasingly muttered if you were serious

You haven’t posted it on your Facebook

My intention was to see if he is man

Man enough for me to consider

I got quite anxious

Wondered if he really would

I changed my statement

If you post it on Facebook

I may not be your girlfriend

If I would,

It requires

High commitment, High responsibility

Not forgetting High Maintenance

It is for a lifetime not a temporary basis

Everything of yours will be mine

While mine remains the same

Truly, a Man he is!

He was waiting for the right time

To express how much he wanted me

Lo and behold, 11.58pm on a 2011 Christmas

He posted his shout out to the world

He held my hand and my fingers reacted

While he said so now you are mine

I replied the opposite from my hand language

He then said you are!

What makes you think so?

Because you responded this time with

With your hand gripping mine

I asked why a day after Christmas?

He said you wanted to put God first

So I am the next prior to Jesus Christ

But how can you propose without a flower?

Then as I was searching for my house keys

To head out of his car back home

To call it a night

Not just any night but a wonderful one

Whilst he pulled out something from his car boot

Hand it over to me

A Bouquet of White Lilies

Oh boy! I was really impressed by him!

8 stalks of varieties of Oriental White Lilies

It marks a new beginning

Of a deeper friendship

With additional two buds yet to blossom

Going on to perfection.  ;)

Written on 26 December 2011

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Christmas Wishes for Someone Special

Christmas Wishes for Someone Special

Dear Santa Claus,

If I could wish for something

I wish for the best for a special someone

Someone that leaves a mark in my life

Someone that is a blessing to me

In every way, every day & every part

Give him the gift he so desire to have

That he would be joyful & merry

This Christmas!

Sincerely Jeline Loh.

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Give Me My Sanity

Give Me My Sanity

Feeling frustrated I am

Trying to get my work done

Realizing that everything is not in order

How do I get on with my current task?

When I have to cover the previous ones

Where it was left undone

It was all swept under the carpet

By the previous staff

Now it surfaces and I have to solved it

Wanted so badly to scold her

For making me so badly burden now

Yet I have to struggle with own current ones

Boss is never around

Who cares about the length of time?

It’s just a month that I am working here

What is frustrating is the job never seems to be completed

It is all hanging in the air and I am losing my focus now

It is driving me nuts as I hate to be diversify

If a thing is not done perfectly yet

Arghhhhhhh! Shoot me! Please!

Written on 22nd December 2011

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Love Letter

Love Letter

Dear Jesus Christ,

I love you
More than anything in this world
More than everything I need
More than words could felt
You are always there for me

I need you more and more each day
More than last night
More than the previous hour
More than time can tell
You are my best friend

I share with you my inner feelings
More than anyone else
More than my closest ones
More than the presence of anyone
You are mine!

Sincerely Jeline Loh

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Are You Proud of Me?

Are You Proud of Me?

I worked so hard just to get your approval

I did all I could to have you admire me

Why am I always not good enough?

Not good enough for you

All I am asking is for you to approved me

To be proud of me for once

Not to look down on me for what I am

But to look beyond me for what I did

I am learning in fact everyday

I am trying in fact every trial

I am changing in fact every moment

I just want to be the best for you

To hear you say that you are proud of me

Would mean everything to me

Could you say that to me?

Written on 21 December 2011

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Apple of Your Eyes

Apple of Your Eyes

The future seems bleak

But I know I will be alright

With you in my life

You have given me faith

You have given me hope

You have given me joy

In the absence of you

I still feel your presence

Guiding me each step

Towards a better future

The future you intend for me to have

One that is according to your will

No matter what I demand

You know best for me

I only hope you will not succumb to me

As I intend to have what you willed

A plan pleasing to your sight

Let me be the apple of your eyes

Written on 21st December 2011

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Exhausted

Exhausted

I am really exhausted

I don’t know what to think anymore

Somebody help me

I am drowning

It is overwhelming

Everyone comes to me with their problems

As though I am a problem solver

Can I play God?

I doubt so

I couldn’t resist helping

As I love to help

Therefore I am always here for you

But I am with my own set of difficulties as well

Still all your cares are mine

Because I love everyone

I love them to know you

You are close to me

Written 20th December 2011

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

I Love You, Not Anymore!

I Love You, Not Anymore!

I thought I knew you

Right from the start you were enticing

You seems to be all that

You seem to know how I feel

You seem to know my very thoughts

I began to open myself up to you

To realize that you were not what I thought

I still hold onto you

But I doubted myself again

I knew I could be wrong

I knew we are not meant to be

Because the world is telling me so

I prove them wrong

Coz I knew you were right

I knew you were meant for me

As time pass us by

Your action speaks for itself

I could only see that

Probably the world is right

I was too naïve to believe

To hold onto something that

Doesn’t seems to reciprocate my love

Doesn’t seems to justify my principles

Doesn’t seems to support my needs

I should have seen what others seen from the start

I should have learn from my experience

I should have known you will never change

You were putting on an act with me

Just to get my attention

Just to waste my time

Just to satisfy your loneliness

Now I have myself to blame

For trusting you so deeply

For pouring my heart out

For giving you the best of me

I love you

Not anymore!

Written 20th December 2011

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

My Sacrifice

My sacrifice

Sitting here wondering what I would do for friendships

I would do much

I would go the extra miles just coz I love you

I would sacrifice my time

Suffer the consequences

Drowned in the difficulties

Though I am feeling tired

Though I want to give up

Though I want to break it

But I wouldn’t

Because I treasure you

You are imprinted in my heart

So deep is my feelings towards you

It seems like it was just yesterday

That we were best of friends

It seems that we had so much memory together

The bitter sweet ones

How could a sudden glimpse of an eye

We were distant now

I do not know what went wrong

Or how I even lost you

If I’ve done anything wrong

I ask for forgiveness

I might be a fool when I was younger

Being just too casual or flippant

But over the years

I have proven

Doesn’t my action speaks louder than my words

Doesn’t it shows how much I regretted

For causing us to drift apart

What could I do to get our friendship back?

I would do anything just to have it restored

I would love to have all things renewed

If it could fall in its place once again

Where I could find myself open to you

Instead of being only nice to you

Where I could be the one

To lend you my ears

To wipe your tears

To console you

To be your comfort

To laugh with you

To feel for you

To be with you

You are always in my heart

Nothing could take your place

How I love you my best friend!

Nonetheless I am truly happy for your wedding

Happily ever after!

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh (19/12/11)

Love Knows, Love Ain't, Love IS!

Love Knows, Love Ain't, Love IS!

Love knows no boundaries
Love knows no ends
Love knows no limits
Love knows no tides

Love ain't careless
Love ain't complaining
Love ain't complacent
Love ain't controlling

Love IS Accepting
Love IS Undying
Love IS Affirming
Love IS Upholding!

Copyrighted @ Jeline Loh

Would or Wouldn't

Would or Wouldn't

Somewhere, somehow you feel down

Emptiness is in your heart

Where do you go and what do you do

If only there is a chance in someone else’s shoes

I would do a thousand things and pursue a wonderful dream

I would be a model so I could try on a million clothes without buying them

I would be a singer singing beautiful songs with a large audience of applause.

I would be an artist to paint picturesquely for admiration

I would be a writer to write best sellers to influence

If I could but I wouldn’t

Or else who’s taking my place

To dream dreams!

Just as I am, You completed me!

Just as I am, You completed me!

Just as I am aimless,

You gave me assurance.

Just as I am barren,

You gave me bountifully.

Just as I am clueless,

You gave me certainty.

Just as I am desperate,

You gave me determination.

Just as I am empty,

You gave me empowerment.

Just as I am fearful,

You gave me a future.

Just as I am gentle,

You gave me greatness.

Just as I am hopeless,

You gave me hope.

Just as I am insecure,

You gave me importance.

Just as I am Jen-Li,

You gave me Jesus Christ.

Copyrighted as usual-JLoh!;)

Jeremiah29:11